frets to death

These feelings are a plague to me each tumor grows and won't let me be I feel a burn from this slow death I lose my life as I scream and fret.

bruises from the battlefield

Emotionally wounded with marks that won't heal I flinch in the darkness  from the pain I now feel. The weakness it holds me  and covers my mouth it smothers my memories and fills me with doubt.  

it's odd

It seems there are canines in the sky. And hogs grow wings with will to fly. The fire covers o’re with ice. What all was wrong is simply right. But see it’s me the same inside Picking at my worthless, shameful, pride. She dances,...

Dismal Dreams

I'm dreaming in December of holiays with you,  But as I pull apart these fantasies alas they can't be true. Immersed in this bleak winter chill it could slip away with just a pill. The frost may sting and bite my flesh but it's my mind that...

far far away

You’re tacky I’m low-key it’s clear now you hate me I’m fed up you’re passed out your shoe stains  on my couch they all say the same thing “she won’t change a damn thing” you're reckless I’m sub par but that...

now be

Stay. Read. Hold. Be. Talk.  Tell. Laugh. Smile. Doze. Sleep. Mumble. Stir. Wake. Shift. Grab. Paint. Strokes. Watch. Create. Kiss. Beam. Leave. Shut. Wave. Remember. Chuckle....

Stuck

Can words express the hurt I feel? I pinch myself, and yet,  it’s real. You’ve long forgot the better days, I romanticize them,  saying I’m ok. I stand alone in frozen snow. Hoping my body reflects the cold I know. Behind...

blueness for infinity

Blue. Blue. Is all I felt.  No darker cards, have ere I delt. You closed your eyes. Just torn away. I begged that you see happy days. Your face grew taut. Then you exhaled. Clear in your eyes. You knew I failed. Blue. And...

Bitter End

What the hell do you think you’re doing? What’s up with befriending me? Keep your motherfucking mouth closed.  And the stay the fuck away from me.  Let me just slit my fucking throat, And stop my gut from reeling, Cause I 'd rather...

Fazed and dazed

Blurry sight and bloodshot eyes.  Rotten carpet, carved out thighs. Stuck in trace, up for hours. Their characters, all growing sour.  They pass right through, and see her face. It mirrors theirs, so they don’t lose pace.  Her red...

Lie Still

I lie on the cold wood floors. My back arcs gently as the grains tickle my skin. I writhe in a damp mess of my own tears. My hair caught in a confusion that lays muddled around my head. Dark black circles frame my eyes, and I can feel the...

see me for what I am

When troubled hearts can breathe again And I’ve finally found my way. When you have seen the world and back But you’re finally here to stay. I need you and I need you to know the truth. My world is spun on fragile lies You never saw...

In this Garden

Roses are red Violets are drab, True love is useless. And simply a fad.   Daisies are golden But sweetness they lack, I was once given tulips And I painted them black.   Posies are lovely But won’t change my mind, ...

I love the light

Only I will remember these memories. But I’ll hold them close, Where they ought to be. My insides glow from your simple words. You caress my worries and my heart is spurred. Smiles grow, last over night. Let the future come, And...

Vile

The cruel words drip from your tactless lips.             My heart is sore, while your tongue's a whip. You call me small and insecure. I swallow the truth but it still tastes poor. They brush off reason, taunt me yet. They grin right...

Journey by Heart

  They made a pact they would leave the town.   They both agreed it held them down.   He told her they could be gone first light.   She bit her lip not feeling right.   He held her hand and soothed her nerves.   “I’ve...

The cursed

Rampant emotions. Muddled mind. Choke her to reason. Has all but a spine. Rescue the rescued. Leave her behind. She’s lost in herself. Be ready to bind. Alone in a desert. Throws away love. Begs for forgiveness. Yet...

Green Dreams

The night had taken an awful twist. My vision painted green, The mean kids had been nice to me My nice friends then were mean.

Bad.

Bad boys. Cliche Hell. Acting tough. Vomit spell. Rehearsed words. Copy cat. Baggy trends. Future Frat. Acting out. Mama’s boy. Repressed emotions. Faking coy. Playing roles. Obsessive flirt. Looking for a...

November

Blue November, how’ve you been? I know it’s been awhile. I thought you might wear a brighter face, but then again that’s not your style. Blue November, where’d you go? I swear it’s been a year. I can see you’ve settled in again, ...

thinking of you

you’re the sweetest dose of clarity, you’re the perfect touch of bliss.   when we all go our separate ways, you’re the only one I’ll miss.

Remember

Corduroy pants on leather seats. Good ‘ole chucks and magazines. Worn out speakers, Hear them play, words about heaven, much like today. Wine coolers, and sunsets too. Sultry looks, as we play the blues.

one day at a time

One day I might be beautiful. One day I might be strong.  One day I might forgive myself For all my god damn wrongs. One day I might stop hurting  And might fall toward the light One day I might have reasons To carry on this...